i, xthru_glass_2_anax, am of sound mind and make the following promise.
 i will give up binge eating and purging.
in place of these actions, i will make an attempt to exercize and read and call friends and try to live normally.
if i cannot find consolation in these things, i will return to my computer and write in this blog.
i will write for my sanity.
i will write for some evidence of my existance.
i will write out what's bothering me.
and i will beat this.
even if it means going to the other extreme.
infact, i need a plan.

i'm on vacation until april 16.
every night i will work out for 2hours or more.
today i will take a lot of laxatives to keep my stomach feeling sick tomorrow and for the rest of the week to avoid binge eating and purging.
each morning i'll drink one cup of green tea.
when i wake up, i will walk the dog.
when i get back, i'll go back to bed.
when i wake up, i'll get my tea and eat my apple (which i'll eat in 30 mins)
then i'll work on AP cours work.
then i'll call ben.
i'll eat a can of corn.
then i'll work again.
then i'll call ben again.
then i'll work out for 2 hours.
i hope this works .. i'm so sick of bulimia